Lost in space
When I was young
I always got
astrology and astronomy mixed up
and never cared about the difference
everyone told me existed
between the two.
Since I have been up in the stars, however,
I have learned
how little difference there actually is
between
the
two.
I watched people spend their lives
arguing how one way of perceiving
is the right way and the only way
of understanding
how the stars ruled their lives.
I also remember when I was young and
I used to tell people
about who I wanted to be
and
how I wanted to be
and
how I wished I could engage with the world
and everyone always
laughed.
They called me a dreamer.
They never called me honest
for not saying
I want to get married
or
I want to have kids
or
I want to own a house and
and
and
and
and
and.
And what’s actually funny about this is that it isn’t
that I don’t want those things in some ways
or that I think those are the wrong ways
but it's the whole
astronomy and astrology
thing.
I just want something different.
Since I have been living
in the stars
I have spent a long time
thinking
about
what life would look like
if I ever came back to Earth,
thinking a lot
if I told everyone
where I’d been and
if I told everyone
the things I’d learned
and had seen
and had heard
and had felt
and had thought
and had experienced.
I think no one would believe me.
I think everyone would want me to be the person they want me to be and not the person I am.
It isn’t my fault
I was taken up to the stars
when I was young and
there are a lot of times when it is
very lonely
up here
and I wonder
if there are other lost people
living on moons and asteroids and in the tails of comets
and I wonder if they are looking back at me.
I know there are some people
who will say
that it's a common thing
to look out and wonder if someone is looking back
and I understand and agree
in most circumstances.
If I am standing on Earth and looking up and
wondering
if someone else lives
on a planet like mine
and is looking back back out and wondering what I am wondering.
I think we can all agree
that is a possibility.
However,
how many people have been
taken
from their homeworld
and sent off along into space
to live on a rock.
Is that a common thing,
intergalactically speaking?
All I know
is that astrology and astronomy both
have told me the same thing in two ways
and I believe them both because
if I don’t believe
then I am alone
staring into the void.
