Love Poem 26
I have a lot of opinions
and I can be a total hypocrite,
so I am going to tell you what sounds like
total bullshit
to me:
oh, I love the imperfections of love
oh, I love the love that really makes you work for it
oh, I love the love that sees you stuck in the rain sometimes
and where you say you laugh at the broke times and where you
say you laugh about the hard times
because the hard times aren’t as hard when we are together,
don’t you know
and oh don’t you remember all those times when
the world was against us
and we didn’t know if there would be a light at the end of the
tunnel and if there was a light
maybe it would be a train
and, boy, do you remember all those times
when I was working through finding out how my brain worked
with the world and struggling to find a place in the world?
how about all those ugly and messy moments,
those times where our tempers flared
and we really got to see what each other are made of
and we got to see the mettle from which we are constructed
and we got to see and feel the fires
in our guts and
our hearts
and we got burned by the raging and roiling and endless
rumination.
Oh yeah, all those times sound great.
How romantic it is to think about the hard times and
the trying times and all those times we were tested
beyond what we thought we could handle
and the romance of the romance was too much.
Oh my god, don’t you remember
that one summer
when it was so hot it was too hot to think,
when the plague was running free
and everything threatened to overwhelm us,
and it was just the two of us in a world that was just life and death.
Oh yeah,
THAT’S romance
THAT’S love
THAT’S the stuff we look at because we think everything going
well and everything matching up and everything aligning and
everything always being good is hogwash
because we’ve been steered towards thinking about always doing
the alternative and thinking about what we are told isn’t
the truth
and we shouldn’t buy into fantasy.
Well, as much as I want the real and I want the truth,
there are just as many times where I want to just be in love
like how they are in the movies.
I told you I am a hypocrite.
