connection is impossible.

The shadows are always a good reason to be with someone.

Of course, couldn’t and wouldn't were only truth

until the truth changed.

I, however, want to know I haven’t left money on the table

I miss making a stupid joke to get a cheap laugh.

no matter how I want the world to be,

it will almost always be another way.

But we know how it always is:

nothing is real

nothing is true

until it’s happening to you.

The difference this time is

I am not afraid anymore.

We were just kids

dreaming

I am happy I left everything behind.

I can’t tell them about isolation or fear or longing.

I don't see much to laugh at there at all.

They were not happy.

Everything would be quiet

and everything would be perfect.

My heart is strong.

Maybe blood on the ground would change the heavens.

A year is just a year.

It isn’t even that long.

I survived three years of plague.

Maybe I was born in the eye of a supernova

just a desperate attempt

in a desperate world

and caught in

desperate times.

pyramids, ziggurats,

blood sacrifice and invasion